Ask and He will listen

For a brief 2 hours, I went through the worse ordeal a med student could have. I thought I had failed my Obs & Gynae paper when the OSCE list was publish. Then mistakes were noticed and the exam office were notified. Thankfully, the new list is up and I'm qualified for OSCE. Thanks be to God. I have never been so thankful and solemnly pray that God will continue to bless me as He always are. I'm forever humble and seeks guidance for the upcoming OSCE. Pray for the examiners and patients, so that they will be fair and helpful. Pray for my fellow classmates so that they will do well too.

Another lazy Sunday afternoon

Here I am at my study desk trying to STUDY. Looking out of my room window....a perfect blue sky and sun shining it's glory. The back garden is clean and clear, after yesterday session of pulling grass and weed while wearing heels. Yes, gardening can be sexy. Any spare heels that you have, use them while gardening. Reason for that being: You can show off your shoe, break the shoe to make it more comfy for future use and imagine for a second that you are Eva Longoria in DH. But if you have, Jimmy Choo or Louboutin, don't do this a home, love you shoes as you love yourself!

Next coming week is the last week for exams. My all being is hoping that I'll get through to qualify for Obs & Gynae OSCE. The list is coming out tomorrow, and I pray to God that I'm in the list. There nothing worse that failing Obs & Gynae because you don't want to repeat it all over again. For those who aspire to be one big shot Obs/Gyn Specialist, good luck and I hope you don't turn up bitter like the infamous Obs & Gynae Specialist who find pleasure in torturing medical students. I can't not imagine how it feels to have hundreds of student dramatically hate them. How does the soul handle that? But then, they must have no soul in the first place anyway, right? I pray that one day they will see how tortured we single cell Amoeba med students are. Trying to read up, but.....what if I'm not in the list? It's catch 22 isn't it? Just to calm myself, I better read and hope that I'll go through OSCE and pass. Those who aim for 1st class, good luck, you'll be even lucky to just pass!!! The exam last Thursday are not undergraduate level but rather for MRCOG level. NOT FAIR!!!

So what can I feed you with today. OK, some travel stuff. If you're itching to learn about the glorious Italy, look up Francesco's Italy in youtube for a 4 episode series of Italy: Top to Toe. Very nice show with a funny charming presenter, Count Francesco da Mosto. His jokes are hilarious.

I love you!

Controversial title....I know! Anyway the American Idol season 7 had a winner already. This guy, David Cook is definitely worth the vote! The best part, he did a rendition of my all time favourite Mariah Carey song "Always Be My Baby". So have a listen, then you'll know why I'm in love!

"Hawt-ness" by Henry Cavill

History, his story and hi-story

History, his story and hi-story. What do you see in history? Is it merely an event or an interpretation of event? History as we know are learned from thick dusty books in the library. Books telling the story of what happen at a particular situation. Do you believe in history and learn from it? Imagine history as a cube of cheese with holes in it. How to interpret the cheese? Only from one view? Or the full six-sided view? Think about it.

Always been fascinated by history, I learned a lot about the way people are from their history and heritage. Medieval times, Renaissance, dark ages, the Industrial movement, Reformation and the likes of Machiavelli, Erasmus, and More, are just some of the things I remember reading about. The centuries of kings and queens are particular interesting to learn. So, I stumble across the TV series The Tudors and decide to watch it. Just to decide how much it is true and whether the history text book we used in school are accurate. Sadly I just learned that the newer text are much shorter therefore less history. It was unbelievable to learn that highschool youths doesn't know what 'The Enlightenment" are! They don't even know who Descartes, Hume, Paine, Rousseau and Voltaire were. Such a waste of knowledge.

So if you're up for a bit of history, look up The Tudor. From what I learn, you can see what happened centuries ago are not to much different as in today times such as:

• Vile individuals using power to get what they want.
• Using beliefs as reason for self importance.
• Man justifying affairs as easy as eating bread.

But from history, we learn. Therefore because we learn, we hopefully would not repeat history. So check out the series if you're interested and look out for Sir Charles Brandon! Played by Henry Cavill.

Movie update and eye-candy

Amidst my normal boring day reading O&G since last Wednesday, I've decide to finish up my ENT revision for the Monday exam. Hopefully it will go well, and with any mercy, probably and wishfully hopeful for a better ENT examination papers as a mood pickup and confidence boost for the O&G papers and Psych OSCE. This is the epitome a medical student life. Studying non-stop (I wish) and worrying my head thinking about exams. I'm officially freaking out, my hair is falling off, spots on my face, panda eyes, and crap exam diet (Gordon Ramsay will be ashame of my culinary supply during exam months). Thankfully there is no annual exam season mucosal ulcers this time.

So, came across this movie trailer. Twilight, coming out end of this year. Looks interesting, plus I'm fascinated by vampires and dracula. NO I'M NOT A GOTH! The best thing I'll be looking forward to about this movie is Robert Pattinson. You may remember him as Cedric Diggory in "Harry Porter and the Goblet of Fire". Total eye candy!!! I can't wait for the movie. Enjoy the trailer courtesy of youtube.

On the sideway

I enjoy this song very much, so I thought I'd share. One of the cute song ever.

"Am I alone in your heart?
Have I hope with your heart?
She's such a teaser, she's such a star.
Give me a reason or gimme a chance.
Am I alone in your heart, or am I alone...?
It tears me apart.
Am I alone?
Doing all I can do, just to be close to you.
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat.
Always up for a laugh, she's a pain in the arse.
Every time that we meet, I skip a heartbeat."

Look it up in youtube Heartbeat by Scouting for Girl

All in a day's work

Feeling much better today. Yesterday was pretty bad day. GP OSCE was pretty horrible, I hope I did well, that being said there are always things you want to do better and wished you had done better. I'm having a clear mind today after a much needed explanation. So no worries anymore. A big SIGH!

Should have stayed longer in the library but finding it too much stress today. Obs and Gynae is killer subject, therefore my frustration is allowed. So took off early and visited a friend who had just given birth a baby girl. Congratulations and all the best to Nana! Take good care of little Sophia.

I'm trying to write up some food stuff soon. But not too soon, my coming two weeks will see me going mad in the library and praying for the most Divine blessing and guidance from God for the exam. Simply saying, my life depends on this exams.

So that all in a day's work, Dublin weather is acting much better this few weeks. Glad to see the sun and clear blue sky again. Hope I didn't jinx it, for I want it to stay longer. I leave this post with my favourite "Raindrop Prelude" by Chopin.

Worry is not a good company

Something is brewing back home, I knew it. Is it a bad one? I don't know. I hope it's not as bad as I imagined. Got some news that, someone close is changing school just after 1 day. What with all the time and money wasted just to move again? I don't understand, unless something totally unacceptable had happened.

So off they go again to register in a new school, a nearer one to home. Shhh...let me tell you, I've gut feeling that this is going to happen. Not that I'm a smart*ss, I just know it's gonna happen. Tried to get them tell me but they're still busy with arrangements.

Long time ago, I had belief everything around me is picture perfect. Everything always comes to place just as I expected. Then growing up seems to distort the picture. Everything change, bit by bit the picture is smudged, scratched, and seems...not perfect anymore. Some I can handle, some are just plain heartache. One way or the other, it makes me the way I am now. Like it or not, I have to accept it.

For my little someone, stay strong for me. Rise above it all and prove to yourself that you are worth it. Realize that you are not a smudge in that picture but a rainbow in a masterpiece.

Ode to Chopin

6 hours post psychiatry exams. I'm raking my head thinking of what to write in my blog today. I was so stressed out and turn to my iTunes for my Chopin music. Feeling much better and relaxed, I finally had an idea. You might think this title is boring and arty but this is what I'm passionate about. So my dear friends, I introduce to you, Frederic Chopin!

Chopin was born in Warsaw, Poland to a French father and Polish mother. Growing as a child pianist prodigy, he move to Paris at the age of 20 and establish himself as one of the greatest piano virtuoso. Leading the Romantic movement, he is famous for his ballades, sonatas, nocturnes and many more. Living in a foreign country, he was a very patriotic and always longing for his home. Sadly, he suffer from what was a very treatable disease today but fatal back then, pulmonary tuberculosis. Being a romantic himself, he had a will written regarding for his death arrangement in 1849,

"Bury me in Pere Lachaise, but send my heart back to Warsaw where I should rest in peace."

Thus, is a small summary of the greatest pianist. On my second trip to Paris in Dec 2007, I finally able to complete one of the "To Do List" in my life, visiting Chopin's grave in Pere Lachaise (thus the photo). It was a very gratifying moment. I wanted to lay roses on the grave but there are non available beautiful enough to symbolize my passion, love and thanks for his music. I've promise to visit again with flowers but until next time, your music will always be loved!

There is always a first time for everything

Being bored in a Sunday morning doing nothing but studying is not good for your health. Unless.....the next Monday is exam day. I humble myself to start this blog thing everybody being raving about for long time. Thanks to some very good friends who supplied me with their antics through blogging, I've decided that this thing is fun and therapeutic.

I'm a beginner at this so have some pity. Now, deciding my blog theme. I've decide to only write about the beautiful things in life, namely food, travel, music, intellectual thoughts and comedy.

So off I go now, tidying up my blog and studying psychiatry at the same time.

(Multitasking is a good brain exercise regime)