There is one point in time where you inevitably think that something in not quite the same. Maybe the up coming turn of age causes this...or a really bad PMS hahaha. Perhaps the biological clock is starting to have an effect on me.
Not feeling the same old me since the exams....don't know why. Perhaps it was the fact that true adulthood is starting soon and I have to finally work to support myself. Scary thought indeed. Despite living all these years there are many things that happened all around that I don't have a clue. Supposed I'm too guarded in what I see, do, and listen. Too much sense for my own good.
Maybe its a good time to somehow express myself more. Not a change but more of a letting go and be free. But lacking specific social skills is not helping. A friend had it in her mind to teach me to enjoy life, going out and have fun. Yeah its that bad, and inert self-deprecating behaviour is not helping as well. There are some good days, but the bad days really hurts.
I'm being out of my mind recently I must say. Impulse buy of a hot pink heels.....sexy time! Bought a bottle of Portugese Rose' wine for dinner tonight. Yeah....but I still love my liver!! And a tub of Ben&Jerry!!!
Ok thats all for now.....
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