Another chapter close: Eulogy

Was walking around town when I got a call saying my grandfather passed away. He was doing gardening when he had what I should say fatal MI. My reaction to mum's phonecall: Oh! So what now? When are you going back home for the funeral?

I'm amazed at how I act. In my imaginary world I would think I would cry but in reality of it, I just pause...let it sink and move on. Don't get me wrong, I am sad but I'm not going to wail my feelings out. I'm not so emotionally close to my grandfather as I would like to be. Growing up, I remember him as a very strict and fierce person. But the flaws work for him, producing good children and grandchildren with strong character and will. He had MI in 1994 resulting in CBAG. Still stubborn as he is, he continued smoking, old habits die hard they say.

I'm unable to fly back and attend the funeral. But I know in spirit I would be there to say my goodbye. I am sad that he couldn't live to see his grandchildren graduate as doctors. His dream was to see us graduate and help others in need. One more year.....one more year is more than enough. But God love His people and take care of them. The coincident is that in few days is my maternal grandfather death anniversary. I hope they join together in heaven and able to see us and care for us from above.

So, in this, I would say that I will not cry. I refuse to remember dear grandpa in sadness but I will remember him in happiness, knowing that he lived a good life and loved by the family.