Happy

I finally made it as a DOCTOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm happy & sad at the same time. I'm happy to pass the exams, but I'm not going to deny that I'm slightly disappointed that I didn't get the honours. It will be nice if I manage to get it, but alas maybe I deserved just a pass. Well its damn hard to get honours in med school anyway. Ah well.....a pass is better that nothing.

Now I have to worry about getting a job. Hopefully it will all work out, because if not....I have to go back home and work there, which I am not ready to do at all!!!

Please Lord, help me to get the job that I want and do not forsake me.

A personal pray

Our Father in heaven,

Forgive me my trespasses....I've too much to read before the exam. I'm sorry for being complacent and unable to attend Your house of pray and give praises. However, You being a understanding and loving God would hopefully forgive my sins, intended or unintended. I pray that the blessing of sacrament would continue, and that the blood and body of our Lord Jesus Christ would flow in me with continue blessing and protection.

Bless all the knowledge that I've learn and yet to learn in hopes that it will put to good use. I pray also for a power of recall and a clear memory. I pray that my answers and act would be in the favor of the examiners. Grant me the skill of eloquence so that my answers would be preferred. Pray also for my health, calmness and confidence so that I can portray myself as it should be.

I pray also to give thanks and praise for all that you have done. I cannot express how indebted I am to Your blessing. Thank you very much.

Lastly, I pray that You will be with me throughout this stressful time and guide me accordingly. So, that I could be an example to others and hopefully after very long hard work, act as an instrument of Your hand on earth to heal others in need.

I ask this with all hope and believe.

Father, Son and the Holy Spirit.

Amen.

One more week to go

Not many read my blog, but to rest of you who did, I've 1 more week living as a student. This time next week, I hope to finally pass my exam. I don't ask much, a pass is better than nothing, if they give me honours then I thank God for His forever generous blessing despite my lazyness to attend church recently. But I'm determined to attend this week and pray for blessing of knowledge, calmness, mental well-being, confidence and a good clinical long case patient who is not confused and talk coherently, and a pair of generous and kind consultant physician and surgeon examiners.

I'm very stressed out to the max. Never in my life I unable to read up my usual piles of notes pre-sleeping time since I'm just too tired to do so. I'm skipping meals because it takes too much time. Anyway, I'm hopeful that all will go well. Wish all my fellow students will do well as well. We've come this far thus we must go forward and end it all with STYLE! Good luck everybody!!

To keep myself happy

Yeah, in this stressed out time, we need some good things to think about. So I'm daydreaming about these list of things to do post result day:

1. Drink the rest of the day off straight after the result announcement.
   
2. Kildare village outlet shopping!!! Must get bargains in Karen Millen, Ralph Lauren, Jo Malone, and Levi's.
3. A day in the spa and finally pamper myself with some girly stuff and luxurious body treatment.
4. HAVE A BLOODY GOOD TIME!!!! It's long time coming and well deserved!!!!

Lalalalalalalalala...........

The Meeting on the Turret Stairs

I am in love with this painting by FW Burton. It is by far the most romantic painting I've came across. I'd prefer this rather than Monalisa (still don't understand the fuss about her). The royal blue clashing with fiery red, flowing clothes exude warmth in the cold turret stairs. The secret meeting couldn't last long for the lady's father had order her brothers to assassinate the knight in the chain armor. The despair, the longing, the sadness of love not meant to be and the truth knowing that they will still be together one day in the other world. How romantic is that!

Good Friday

I have a lot to be thankful about this Good Friday. All the blessing that I've received are impossible if Jesus didn't die for our sins. So, don't take things for granted. Everyday is a blessed day and God will guide us accordingly to His will. AMEN!

As for today, I'm speed reading AGAIN...this time it's Surgical Recall. PANIC is not my best friend by I'm starting to feel it. I don't like exams but there is no choice. 3 more weeks...then hopefully I'll officially be DR ???, LRCSPI MB BCh BAO! Next 3 weeks will see me running mad around the wards to practice Hx and Ex and presenting. Last minute boost is essential for the adrenaline. Countless sleepless nights has cause permanent panda eyes and the eye cream doesn't seems to work....I'm just too lazy to apply them on.

Well, I'm off to the National Gallery tomorrow hopefully to relax and feed my right brain with some art stimulation in order to balance with my left brain. Imbalance stimulation is not good. Studying science while listening to classical music is proven way to maximize the brain function and memory potential. I'm just gonna do that for the few remaining weeks!!! Fingers crossed!

It is confirmed

Why the title? Well, it is confirmed that I have a sad boring life. Had a teaching with Emergency consultant yesterday and the most funniest thing happened.

Teacher: You guys know what Colles's fracture is?
All: Yes.
Teacher: OK good, and the reverse of Colles's is Smith's fracture.
All: Yeah.
Teacher: All right, do you know that Smith is Colles's student and that he requested Smith to do a post mortem on him when he died?
Me: Yes I know about it!
Others: We don't know.
Teacher (on verge of laughing): OMG, I can't believe you know that useless piece of information. You are a very sad student with nothing else to do. YOU SHOULD GET OUT MORE! Promise me that. *finally laughing*
All including me: *laughing our heads off with tears running down the face*

Well there you go, a consultant has told it to my face that I live a boring life and therefore should make an effort to go out more. My only defend would be that, I came across an article about the life of Abraham Colles and decided to read it. I'm not going to deny that my life is not exciting as everyone else but I'm happy that I live that way. No nonsense social events involving drunken people and humans who seems to be on the heat all the time and can't wait to get into each other's pants. EUWWW! How low can humanity go that all they could think of is ***k around? Life full of integrity and self control is better suited to my belief on how a human should live.

OK, I'm taking an off day today. Yay....nothing else available for teaching today at the hospital so I'm happy to woke up 1 hour later than usual *still early in everyone else's clock though*

A change? Or disinhibition?

There is one point in time where you inevitably think that something in not quite the same. Maybe the up coming turn of age causes this...or a really bad PMS hahaha. Perhaps the biological clock is starting to have an effect on me.

Not feeling the same old me since the exams....don't know why. Perhaps it was the fact that true adulthood is starting soon and I have to finally work to support myself. Scary thought indeed. Despite living all these years there are many things that happened all around that I don't have a clue. Supposed I'm too guarded in what I see, do, and listen. Too much sense for my own good.

Maybe its a good time to somehow express myself more. Not a change but more of a letting go and be free. But lacking specific social skills is not helping. A friend had it in her mind to teach me to enjoy life, going out and have fun. Yeah its that bad, and inert self-deprecating behaviour is not helping as well. There are some good days, but the bad days really hurts.

I'm being out of my mind recently I must say. Impulse buy of a hot pink heels.....sexy time! Bought a bottle of Portugese Rose' wine for dinner tonight. Yeah....but I still love my liver!! And a tub of Ben&Jerry!!!

Ok thats all for now.....

To do list post exam

So here's what I think I should do after the exam.

1. Plan a holiday for pre graduation. I'm thinking Normandy, I'm thinking Provence, I'm thinking Dubrovnik, I'm thinking Krakow......I'm still thinking. It's hard to find a place where everyone else want to join along. I want a place with a bit of history, culture, sun and sea. Where should I go? Scandinavian country are nice but too expensive for the budget. I AM DESPERATE FOR A HOLIDAY!!!!!!

2. Get fit! I owe my Nike gym shoes workout sessions. Gotta loose weight for the graduation week! Owe my dresses a good fitting.

3. Find time to have an evening out once a while with friends. Need to break the viscous cycle of boring life style.

4. Work hard for the clinical, must slam dunk the final clinical exams!

5. Go to spa for a change.....at least once!

6. Do a bit of shopping!!!

F***off Valentine's day

While I'm actually trying to memorize some emergency medicine stuffs, some thoughts on V-day for today. I'm not cynical but rather realistic...wait..I am CYNICAL!

1. Hate the cupid animation on yahoo....so annoying. The Halloween animation is much better with skeletons dancing to MJ's Thriller.
2. Hate the mushy atmosphere in town with flowers everywhere.....and florists taking advantage!
3. Love the discounts and promo around town though.
4. Love the pre-spring fashion and weather is getting better.
5. Hate that I have to memorize the antibiotics doses. Yeah this is random.
6. Hate the HSE cutbacks, yeah random again. They want doctors to live on the streets
7. Love to go to Paris for spring
8. Love the fact that I'm actually running out of time *sarcasm*

So you see, it is a love hate situation at the moment. I want Doraemon's magic pocket so I can see the exam papers! Yeah I'm Nobita! Hmm...I might look up the cartoons to cheer me up and accompany me studying.

Ok folks....life is boring as it is, I am bored, and I am boring.....

Can't wait to get a drink after the surgery exams! I deserved the hangover! Cosmo here I come.

Espresso!!!

Monday: Cardio
Tuesday: Resp
Wednesday: Resp + Gastro
Thurs: Renal + Endo
Friday: Heam + Neuro + Rheum
Saturday: Surgery + Emergency + Anaes
Sunday: Church + Surgery
Monday: Med past years + Emergency + Criterias
Tuesday: Med express R/V + Sleep
Wednesday: Medicine final paper
Thursday: Surgery express R/V + Sleep
Friday: Surgery final paper
Saturday: Hangover!!!!!!!!

Photo explained

Taken last summer in Gatwick Airport. Bought a box of cookies but then have to finish them all prior to boarding. My fave is pecan and banana, and walnut! Yum!

PSSSSSST!!!

~Henry Cavill~

~Matthew Goode~

One on one with 12 leads ECG

1. What is the worst song ever and why?
This is a tough question. I think the worst song ever is "I'll Never Break Your Heart" by BSB. I love the band but this song is totally terrible. Why? Because it is totally crap and stupid. Me cynical self think that it is overrated and totally wrong representation of men nowadays who simply enjoys breaking people hearts.

2. Tell us 5 places you would consider to be your wedding venue.
Lake Garda
Oia
Antigua
Paris
Bali

3. Who would be on you laminated list and why?
Matthew Goode: Because he's hot in "Chasing Liberty" and the accent is to die for.
Henry Cavill: Hot, hot and hot. Enough said!

4. What did you learned/experience that you didn't expect since you starter blogging?
That I basically living a dull life!

5. What was your worst embarrassing moment?
Getting a valentine card return back to me. Long story......basically I was embarrassed because I should know better. What was I thinking??? That was 10 years ago.

Boredom brings me to this 25 things

Apparently I am suppose to write 25 random things about myself. Here we go.

1. I am a clean and neat freak. Love to arrange stuffs accordingly and clean up the kitchen. So refreshing.

2. I adore french movies! I think it must be the language or the fact that the cinematography are liberating.

3. I would consider myself a domestic goddess. Unfortunately those qualities are not attractive in this modern era. Men prefer women who can only dial the telephone for food delivery and act cute while doing it as well. Eurghhhh!

4. I have emotional issues with my body image.

5. I have a vision of success in my mind. Imagine a picture of me with a stethoscope around my neck standing in front of a posh house with a posh car at my side and wearing a posh attire. Yes that is what I'm working on for. Any other addition to that picture is a bonus.

6. I love chestnut, pistachio, coffee and dark chocolate gelato. Grom!!!!

7. I'm crazy about sushi and sashimi. Courtesy of my sister who introduce me to the art of Japanese food.

8. In my past lives, I think I was a chef who travel around the world in search for the perfection of FOOD!!!!

9. I have DIY spa session every Sunday. Ladies!! You have to treat yourself.

10. I love all things lingerie. Wear the best pair you have when you're feeling down and you'll feel much better and sexy. Trust me! That and a pair of heels.

11. I'm planning to catalogue my shoe collection properly.

12. I want to go to Lake Garda and Lake Como in Italy.

13. I want to "sight-seeing" in Copenhagen, Stockholm and Oslo.

14. I have bad procrastination in terms of writing notes.

15. I believe in karma. Do unto others what you want others do unto you. What goes around came back around.

16. I'd love to buy a chic Parisian apartment for a holiday home. Can't get enough of Paris.

17. I dislike people who don't have time management skills.

18. If I ever get married, I want Chopin to be played in my wedding.

19. I have a big green frog in my room!!!

20. I lack a bit of socializing skills. Chatting up people are the most difficult thing to do. I'd rather treat acute heart attack....far more easier.

21. I love Yankee's scented candles. They have to most loveliest scents!!!

22. I like to throw away unnecessary stuff. Minimalist is the way forward. Say NO to hording!!

23. I read a lot. I've tons of books under my bed and in boxes back home.

24. I can't wait to have my own house.

25. Lastly, now I want to get ready to study after typing the ethical case the whole day. Oh and also my DIY spa session!

There you go. Boring isn't it....?

10 reasons of me being snappy today

I feel bad today after snapping of a friend. Not intended....it just happened. So lets analyze things.

1. Starting to feel panic 14 days before final written exams.
2. Wanted so BAD to shop!
3. The bloody ethics article is tearing my head with all the philosophy.
4. Need to call home for some supports.
5. Missing my brothers and sisters.
6. Missing my mum and dad.
7. Missing a friend----partner in crime currently away!
8. Worrying about getting a job.
9. Wishing there are more than 24 hours in a day!!!!!!!
10. Wanted to have an extra external modem for my brain.

The perils of a medical student. Next time you have any children, don't let them stray into medicine. Find a better option!

Nothing really nice to talk about today. Well, maybe except few things below:

1. Apparently I have a nice soft voice.....errrrrrr totally uncalled for from someone totally unrelated (I know I turned red).
2. Two "eye-mo" to relief my keratoconjuntiva sicca (ie. dry eyes).
3. Maybe there is light at the end of the tunnel that is isn't an upcoming train!

Adios!

Let's pretend to study for exams: Bad Medicine!

Class is starting again tomorrow after 6 weeks of break. This time there is no playing around. News, I actually pass my mock surgery and medicine exams even though I didn't prepare myself. Good to know where I stand and will work on in......this time in February. Exactly 1 month from now, lets hope its will more that just a passing grade.

Mum and sister are in London at the moment and possibly at Windsor Castle today, will be flying home on Tuesday. After 6 weeks of spending time with them, definitely will be missing the home cooked food. Finally have the much needed time to finally shed the pounds accumulated during the holiday.

Leaving the post with this song.

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Yay!!! Bad medicine is what I need!!! ROCK ON!!!!

PS: Will plan the pre-grad holiday after exam.

Pre-Grad holiday option

In midst of my "faking studying" I'm actually having intrusive thoughts of where to go for a pre-grad day 1 week break. Since its almost 99% that I might not join the class trip to Zakynthos, so here are my current list.

So, Miss Stiletto and Zy, let me know what you think.

So here is my top FIVE!!!

1. Malta
2. Mallorca
3. Any Greek islands
4. Nice
5. Any lake at the Lombardy region, Italy
   

Happy New Year 2009

Here are some clips from Vienna's New Year Concerts from over the years.