Good Friday

I have a lot to be thankful about this Good Friday. All the blessing that I've received are impossible if Jesus didn't die for our sins. So, don't take things for granted. Everyday is a blessed day and God will guide us accordingly to His will. AMEN!

As for today, I'm speed reading AGAIN...this time it's Surgical Recall. PANIC is not my best friend by I'm starting to feel it. I don't like exams but there is no choice. 3 more weeks...then hopefully I'll officially be DR ???, LRCSPI MB BCh BAO! Next 3 weeks will see me running mad around the wards to practice Hx and Ex and presenting. Last minute boost is essential for the adrenaline. Countless sleepless nights has cause permanent panda eyes and the eye cream doesn't seems to work....I'm just too lazy to apply them on.

Well, I'm off to the National Gallery tomorrow hopefully to relax and feed my right brain with some art stimulation in order to balance with my left brain. Imbalance stimulation is not good. Studying science while listening to classical music is proven way to maximize the brain function and memory potential. I'm just gonna do that for the few remaining weeks!!! Fingers crossed!

It is confirmed

Why the title? Well, it is confirmed that I have a sad boring life. Had a teaching with Emergency consultant yesterday and the most funniest thing happened.

Teacher: You guys know what Colles's fracture is?
All: Yes.
Teacher: OK good, and the reverse of Colles's is Smith's fracture.
All: Yeah.
Teacher: All right, do you know that Smith is Colles's student and that he requested Smith to do a post mortem on him when he died?
Me: Yes I know about it!
Others: We don't know.
Teacher (on verge of laughing): OMG, I can't believe you know that useless piece of information. You are a very sad student with nothing else to do. YOU SHOULD GET OUT MORE! Promise me that. *finally laughing*
All including me: *laughing our heads off with tears running down the face*

Well there you go, a consultant has told it to my face that I live a boring life and therefore should make an effort to go out more. My only defend would be that, I came across an article about the life of Abraham Colles and decided to read it. I'm not going to deny that my life is not exciting as everyone else but I'm happy that I live that way. No nonsense social events involving drunken people and humans who seems to be on the heat all the time and can't wait to get into each other's pants. EUWWW! How low can humanity go that all they could think of is ***k around? Life full of integrity and self control is better suited to my belief on how a human should live.

OK, I'm taking an off day today. Yay....nothing else available for teaching today at the hospital so I'm happy to woke up 1 hour later than usual *still early in everyone else's clock though*

A change? Or disinhibition?

There is one point in time where you inevitably think that something in not quite the same. Maybe the up coming turn of age causes this...or a really bad PMS hahaha. Perhaps the biological clock is starting to have an effect on me.

Not feeling the same old me since the exams....don't know why. Perhaps it was the fact that true adulthood is starting soon and I have to finally work to support myself. Scary thought indeed. Despite living all these years there are many things that happened all around that I don't have a clue. Supposed I'm too guarded in what I see, do, and listen. Too much sense for my own good.

Maybe its a good time to somehow express myself more. Not a change but more of a letting go and be free. But lacking specific social skills is not helping. A friend had it in her mind to teach me to enjoy life, going out and have fun. Yeah its that bad, and inert self-deprecating behaviour is not helping as well. There are some good days, but the bad days really hurts.

I'm being out of my mind recently I must say. Impulse buy of a hot pink heels.....sexy time! Bought a bottle of Portugese Rose' wine for dinner tonight. Yeah....but I still love my liver!! And a tub of Ben&Jerry!!!

Ok thats all for now.....